10 Thoughts on my Last Day of Pregnancy

So as I lie here in bed, exactly 40 weeks pregnant and on the even of my induction, I though I would update my blog.  But I began to wonder, "What should I write about?"  I mean of course there is alot of excitement going on but what should I really say?  I was surfing around my friends blog and I was reading one friend who was listing her "10 on Tuesdays" (What a great read Amanda thanks!) So I decided to write one similar to hers, but it would be more of a "10 thoughts on my last day of Pregnancy".  I decided to be completely honest in my thoughts as I sit here with my son, wiggling snuggly in his little home for possibly his last time until he is born.

1.  I'm scared to DEATH about giving birth.  I cried myself home today after my doctors appointment today because of the pain I endured to "get labor started" which after two attemps didn't even get done.  If I can't even go thru that, what makes me think I can have a baby.  This scares the crap outta me.  I know I will survive, for I have Jonathan and a strong line if drugs awaiting me.

2. I can't WAIT to see Connor's face!!  I have felt him kick, wiggle and flip for the past 4 months.  Now I get to see him do the same thing, just safely in his crib and not in my belly. I can't wait to see his cute little face and hold him for the first time. 

3.  I couldn't have done this without Jonathan.  I couldn't have done this alone, nor would I have wanted to.  He has been there for me thru thick and thin, thru mood changes and food cravings and he never complained once about it.  My prayer for Connor is to learn from his father, on how a man should be.

4.  I'm excited to get my body back.  I know it won't be overnight, but I'll be glad to stop wearing tents, my feet won't swell up anymore, I wont have to have the house at below freezing and I'll be able to bend over to pick things up again.  Awesome.

5.  My pregnancy has been a blessing.  Alot of you know the road to our pregnancy was not an easy one.  But the time finally came and we became pregnant.  I can honestly say that this pregnancy has been a blessing and I haven't had ANY issues.  This pregnancy has been ideal.  Now if I can't just get thru the birthing process, we'll be good.

6.  Is thankful for all her friends who have been pregnant before her.  Alot of people don't want to be told what to do when they are pregnant or what they'll need once baby arrives. I was very thankful for everyones advice and will continue to recieve it will gratitude.  Only thing I didn't like was the comments "Oh you just wait till this happens"  usually followed by some horrible statement meant to be helpful but masked as a scare tactic.  Luckily I didn't get too many of those last ones and thankfully what they "warned me about", never happened :)

7.  Is thankful to God.  I did alot of praying and reading of my Daily Pregnancy Devotional. It was amazing how my daily devotional was right along were I was, with an insirpational story and verse.   I pray that we as a soon to be family of 3, can find a church were we belong, since we are currently without a church home at this moment.

8.  Is scared about becoming a parent.  You can get all the advise and help from everyone you know, but it in the end its just me, Jonathan and Connor.  I know God would not have allowed us to be parents if we couldn't handle it so Connor, be patient with us, this is our first time as a mommy and daddy.

9. Hoped to have gone into labor naturally.  Most women in our family had to be induced, I was hoping that I could break that trend, but as of right not it doesn't appear that will happen.  I also hope to have this kid naturally since everyone also seemed to have c-sections, but after todays doctor appointment, I kinda hope I have a c-section now, not only because of the pain, but I get 2 extra weeks of disabilty pay for it :)

10.  I can't wait for Connor to meet our family.  We have so much love to give this little guy and I hope he feels as lucky to have us as family as we are to bring him into our family.  He will have great grandparents, aunts and uncles, cousins and friends that I hope he doesn't go one second without feeling loved.

Well, thats pretty much all I've gotta say for now as I feel like I should get up and start moving around since Connor is flipping around too, hopefully getting ready to move out :) Next post. . .the arrival of Connor Andrew!!! Stay tuned!!

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